We’ve been quiet again for a little while. Internal chaos was building, flashbacks increasing, and my ability to cope was fading.
I spent a few weeks in hospital doing some of the most intense therapy I’ve ever done. Really, truly addressing the trauma we’ve experienced. There were tears, plenty of zoning out, but ultimately triumph.
Trigger words are no longer so triggering. They’re sensitive and painful, but no longer triggering. I can use these words to describe the trauma we experienced instead of doing everything I can to avoid it.
We managed to do a lot of work with different parts. There’s still plenty of work left to do with different parts, but we did a lot.
Now we’re home we’re taking time to adjust to life at home. It will take time to get used to having our freedom. Once we’ve settled back in to day-to-day life I’ll try to write more regularly.